not because i got no time to update but because of fear ? i guess, or maybe other reasons
I knew that, i've goes far away from GOD.
I went to TARC CF events for 3 times!
everytime i got touched deeply in the bottom of my heart
especially the EASTER event, GOD leaded me to join the event
he helped my to solved all the barrier that blocked me to join this event.
Praise the lord!
After that,i couldn't heard any voices from god
but the feeling was really strong and i said to myself
< i shouldn't treat GOD as a stranger >
< i should have pray everyday for the past 20years, but why i dont? >
< i should have be patience enough to listen to GOD voice. >
and so and so and so.....its' too many to mention here.
No doubt, now i can feel GOD is really with me all the time
everyday and even every second
i've made it. To pray every night, to tried to view the bible more often.
This is a gift from GOD. She is my mother, a caring, kind, open-minded mother.
The best mother ever!
She told me that she is very worry i will be running away from her
like leave the church i've stay for the past 20years.
I dont't want to make her worry on me. I can understand her situation, i understand her feeling.
Today, i manage to persuade her to be confidence on me! TRUST ME!
That even i join the christian activities,
but i know what am i doing, i know, i know!
No doubt, christians' & catholics' are all one family!
However, not eveyone will agree on my thought.
I am still a catholic. The words always appear in my mind.
I didn't mean that christian is not good, but for me
I will follow the route the GOD had made for me,
I am clear that the route was already made since i was born
I born in a catholic family, that's who i am.
I don't know why GOD will leads me to get closer with christian,
but i believe that there is reason for GOD to do so.
Between christian & catholic, there is some different in conducting prayer and some other things.
I can see all the weaknesses that i faced in my church.
Maybe this is the reason why GOD leads to door of christian.
He want me to learn, to see, to listen...
and brings the gospel back and ''re-alive'' my church
and tell everyone that christians' & catholics' are all one family!
Praise the lord, jesus christ.
